Alone But Not Lonely

Anyone who has been in a long distance relationship knows how hard it is. I had to move to a new town for my 1-year pharmacy placement so I spend most of my evenings alone. My husband is in India and I am in England. Things are getting harder as the temperature is getting colder. I am shivering myself to sleep when I know I should be besides my husband. The other downside to winter getting closer is that next week the clocks go back. This means that the 4.5-hour time difference will grow to 5.5 hours. I finish work at 6pm most days and will not get home until midnight Indian time. My husband has to get up for work so this is going to have to cut our Skype time, which is the highlight of each day. I am alone but not lonely.

Happiness is being with you

When I am feeling down I close my eyes and feel his presence with me. There will always be that connection holding us together, no matter how many thousands of miles stand between us. Several times I have tightly closed my eyes, clenched my fists and tensed every muscle and concentrated on being transported to our bedroom in India, surprising, it never works and I am still sitting in my empty flat in England once I open my eyes.

Once I get on that plane and move to India next year, I hope that there won’t be  even a moment when I don’t feel so grateful to be reunited with my husband. Not even a single second.

283 days until I call India my home. I cannot even imagine the happiness I will feel to never have to be without my husband ever again! But for now, I will be alone but not lonely.

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13 thoughts on “Alone But Not Lonely

  1. i’ve been there or actually still am! My boyfriend is in China and we haven’t seen each other for 6 months now. It’s horrible!! BUT he just got his visa approved and will come visit me at the end of the year!! I’m as happy as can be!!!

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  2. Long ago I had a boyfriend who left the U.S. to go back home to Sri Lanka. He promised to return for me. I was not lucky like you and married to him nor did I have his love apparently for he never returned and broke my heart. Years later I found a man who did love me and, thank the Lord, he is still with me 26 years later. Real love conquers all, even separation. I wish that your time apart passes quickly and know that you are blessed with each other although you are apart.

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  3. I would be interested in seeing new pictures of you and your husband. It seems that you post too many of the same ones. You’re a lovely couple, so I’m hoping you will post something new 🙂

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      • Of course! I was in a LDR with my now-husband for over a year. We saw each other twice in that time; so I feel your pain in that, truly. But take as many pictures as possible when you’re together. It seems silly at the time but when you’re apart and you have all of the photos to look through (flattering and unflattering alike) you’ll be glad for them 🙂

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  4. “When I am feeling down I close my eyes and feel his presence with me. There will always be that connection holding us together, no matter how many thousands of miles stand between us.” That is so beautiful. :’) I know this is so hard for you, but you’re a really strong woman. You will be with your beloved soon enough. ❤

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  5. I have now read most of your posts! You have such a beautiful story! It reminds me a little bit of my own. I can tell by the way you write the indescribable amount of love you have for your husband. We have now been married for two years and I can remember also the really bad times I had while we were long distance, to
    Some people may just find it ridiculous the amount of distress the separation can cause over long periods of time but I can totally relate with you. We have had to do a lot of travelling these two first years of marriage and even if it’s only a couple of weeks I will miss him as bad as I did at the beginning. You have such a beautiful way of writing that I wish I had the ability to do it as well.

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    • Thank you so much for reading, Aida!! Long distance is so hard, before living it I never expected it to be so difficult!!

      My husband has today gone on his first business trip since I moved to India and I feel such sorrow without him… I don’t think it gets easier.

      I hope you and your husband are able to spend much more time together these days! Thank you soooo much for your kind words. Take care

      Lauren

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