It was only going to be a couple of weeks until I saw my Husband again! I have been so excited and counting down the days since I arrived back in England, but now I will not be going to India for Diwali.
I was sitting on my sofa, flicking through my passport, inspecting the stamps and visas from my previous travels and the water marks on the pages caught my eye. Then I realised what had happened. I used my passport as proof of identity when collecting a package on a rainy day. The water had made a big purple bubble in the corner of my biodata page, water had even found my visa.
I was holding a water damaged passport.
Frantically searching through the pages that Google threw up, I tried to see if I could still travel to India on this passport. All of the forums, websites and blogs said the same thing, passport: invalid. I started to hyperventilate… there is not enough time to get a new passport for Diwali. I had to sit down. The thought of seeing my Husband soon has pulled me through these past couple of months but due to my own carelessness, I’m stranded here.
That same day my manager told me I might not be able to take the full 3 weeks I had planned to take (even though I am entitled to this much holiday) because it is so close to Christmas and the pharmacy is at its busiest during this time. I had already thought my plans might be ruined… but now the purple smear confirmed it.
Together, my Husband and I tried to think of a solution to this passport problem. I was going back and forth on whether I should try and risk it. One second I would be confident that I wouldn’t have any problems because all the information itself on the passport is clear… but the next minute I was certain that they would not let me leave Heathrow with a passport in this state.
Slowly we came to terms with the fact that we are going to have to endure some more separation. I could come in February instead, the exact midpoint of our twelve month separation. If I had gone to India for Diwali we would have had to endure the nine months after Diwali without seeing each other! At least when we are saying goodbye at Mumbai in February, we will be seeing each other again in six months.
It has been a roller-coaster of emotions but we now feel that going in February is a good idea (when looking at the big picture- I would give anything to get on a plane right now!!). I miss my Husband so much, I cannot even put into words how much it hurts.