Creative vs. Critic 27


I came across this quote today about being an artist and I had to write about it immediately

Artists are people driven by the tension between the desire to communicate and the desire to hide

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This is the perpetual dilemma I face as a writer, my desire to express ebbs and flows with the small voice inside my head telling me to be quiet. My inner critic pulls the strings of my instinct to hide away and ignore the world whilst my creativity kicks and screams, demanding it’s freedom.  There is a fierce battle being fought deep inside my psyche and I never considered that this tension could be yielded in some way.

My creativity wants to welcome you into my inner world and share not only beauty but my suffering, thus transforming that negativity into something beautiful (a piece of writing). I need to express myself, I want to connect with people… I have to create!!

My inner critic, who I imagine as a small grumpy old man smoking cheap cigarettes, has other ideas and judges everything my creativity creates. This is not good enough, shut up, people don’t want to read this rubbish  (he says, as he spits on the floor). Lauren, you should stop being so vulnerable to personal attack, don’t. say. another. word!

This quote really made me think about my creative life and whilst being a vile entity, my inner critic has driven me to improve my writing and to take a break from it when I need to. He is helping me mold my creative, but he has to work on his bedside manner. If I can convince my inner critic to become kinder and my creative to develop more resilience, there should surely be a ceasefire! 

I understand this was a rambling post, I just had to write it…

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About Lauren Mokasdar

Lauren fell in love on the internet, took a one way flight from England, got married & started a new life & bicultural family in India. She writes about finding happiness & balance between two very different worlds, when her baby takes a nap.


27 thoughts on “Creative vs. Critic

  • Anshuman Mishra

    Hi Lauren,

    Very nice write up.
    We each have a creative self within, I am yet to talk to mine..

  • anenglishwomaninmumbai

    Watch the film “playing it cool” – it has a writer in it who also has an inner critic chain-smoking cigarettes! 🙂 Don’t let any critic including your inner one stop you from writing – if people don’t like what you write they don’t have to read it – the rest of us enjoy it! Plus writing is a cathartic and healing process and good for the soul like a form of meditation.

    • Lauren Mokasdar Post author

      Nooo way!! 😀
      Haha, I swear I had never heard of that movie- must be in the collective unconscious!

      Thank you sooo much for your lovely supportive words!!! I totally agree, writing does wonders!!

      Lots of loveeee xx

  • ango

    Some are brave & live an adventurous life some are rational & live a simple life. And I think both are right way to live unless we regret the choice.. The way I think about your dilemma, is same. U may listen to your creative side discarding the ‘grumpy old man’ or u may as well take to his criticism, u should not regret the choice u make. Neither should anyone.

  • Emily (Cooking for Kishore)

    Hi Lauren and Welcome Back! Our inner critic is our biggest ally and at the same time our most dreaded foe. How we respond to the criticism all depends on the situation, our emotions, the subject, timing, and our mindset. It’s definitely a tough line to walk, and it’s something I deal with on a daily basis. Ultimately you should be happy and proud of your work, don’t worry others. All the best! 🙂

  • Susan

    Hi Lauren! Please tell that grumpy old man, aka your inner critic, to keep his opinions to himself! You are a talented writer and artist, and there are many people in the world who want to read/see/enjoy your talents. We all have that grumpy critic, and mine is especially cruel to me. ? I shouldn’t listen to him, but I do. Hope you’re doing well. ?
    Susan

    • Lauren Mokasdar Post author

      Hehe, thank you so much Susan!!
      I am sorry yours is also cruel, they really do need to learn some manners!!
      I hope that you are well! Are the summer holidays over there? xx

  • Shobha

    Hi Lauren,
    Great to see you are doing well and back from a break. This quote is very thought provoking – art is indeed an expression of one’s thoughts; poetry seems to be the art form that is a total expression of one’s innermost thoughts which have been mulled over and a distillation of a personal truth.
    Expressing one’s thoughts as a form of daily communication may require a balance of emotion and logic aka inner critic.
    That is the tricky part – what is written online is permanent and what is blurted out in the heat of the moment may be regretted later when sees a different aspect of the situation or knows the real history of the trigger event.
    Perhaps it is why some write a daily journal/dairy and keep it private. Baring one’s soul is not easy, especially when the audience is so vast – many who are total strangers. Your readers’ comments seem to be very supportive of you; but you probably also get some nasty comments – let them go and stay balanced.
    All the Best,
    Shobha

    • Lauren Mokasdar Post author

      Hey Shobha,

      Lovely to hear from you!
      Yess, I also journal because not all of life’s ups and downs are “blogable”, but I think I am pretty open generally. I haven’t regretted anything I have published… so far, but perhaps that is because of my inner critic!! 😀

      Take care and thank youuu 😀

  • chefjulianna

    Well, I can certainly relate to your ramblings, Lauren! I love the image of the grumpy old man critic and it will bring some levity when my own critic starts to blather on! Thanks so much for this post.

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